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Mar. 3rd, 2002 08:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sesanaHonestly, I wasn't sure about putting this in my journal, but what the hell, I needed to get it out.
Those of you who know me well enough know that my father died recently. September 14, 2000, to be exact. And yes, I am having a hard time of it, but wouldn't you be? I miss him.
But at any rate, today I had to call my great aunt for whatever reason. Now, three years ago, she had my dad record an outgoing message on her answering machine for her. And it's still on there. I wish to God she'd just take it off. It's not like there's nobody else in the family who could do it for her. (she lives alone and she wanted a male voice on her outgoing) But it's just so hard to have to call and listen to my daddy's voice to get to leave a message and keep crying because there's a message to leave and my mother's sitting right there.
I miss him so much. I don't really talk about it, because I can't even think about it without crying, and the only people I know who understand are my mother and my sister. But I miss him. And I think I'm doing ok, but how the hell would I know? I just want my daddy back.
Those of you who know me well enough know that my father died recently. September 14, 2000, to be exact. And yes, I am having a hard time of it, but wouldn't you be? I miss him.
But at any rate, today I had to call my great aunt for whatever reason. Now, three years ago, she had my dad record an outgoing message on her answering machine for her. And it's still on there. I wish to God she'd just take it off. It's not like there's nobody else in the family who could do it for her. (she lives alone and she wanted a male voice on her outgoing) But it's just so hard to have to call and listen to my daddy's voice to get to leave a message and keep crying because there's a message to leave and my mother's sitting right there.
I miss him so much. I don't really talk about it, because I can't even think about it without crying, and the only people I know who understand are my mother and my sister. But I miss him. And I think I'm doing ok, but how the hell would I know? I just want my daddy back.
